Tuesday, February 17, 2009

What the kids did...

Saturday J had all the kids until dinner time and he made a video of some of the fun things they did together. He is such a good daddy and husband. Here is the link to the video, don't forget to pause his music.

Other than that I'm still trying to process the doctor's appointment yesterday. He asked if I was going to have any more kids because this is a dangerous disease, not sure if disease is what you would call it, to have kids with. It can cause heart problems and such. I know that we are done and I'm completely fine with that but to hear from a doctor that you shouldn't have more kids is a bit hard to swallow, I'm only 30 years old. I feel extremely blessed to have these 4 beautiful healthy kids but I can't seem to stop my brain thinking about the what if's. Thank you Jesus for giving me healthy kids to love and take care of for you. And thinking about how GG and Monkey were surprise pregnancies it makes me see how much God was in control of our family from the very beginning. He knew this was my future and he gave us children before the illness came out.


Megan said...

What a sweet video! I want to show my husband the water/vinegar/baking soda "experiement" :)

Yes, God is in control!

Tracey said...

Honey, I know all about those "what if's".


Crissybug said...

Looks like they had a great time.

My father in law has fibromyalgia. I can only imagine how hard it must be to process all this info especially since you are so young. Hopefully with the help of your doctor you will be able to feel somewhat normal soon.

As far as the baby thing...I can only imagine what it must feel like to be 'done'. Yet to have someone tell you that you don't have a choice must be even harder to accept. You are so right about the lord having his hand in all things. My favorite quote is 'Every person God puts into our lives, Every experience that He gives us, Is the PERFECT preparation for the future only He can see.'

He knows you and knows what you can handle. It may not be easy, but he is mindful of you and the things you are going through. :)

Kristin said...

I only had the chance to watch J's first experiment! What an entertaining daddy! I'll keep you in my prayers with your health!

Nap Warden said...

He definitely has a plan. I thank God every day for the beautiful children he put in my life...{hugs}

WML said...

Tonya, I am glad you have a name for your pain, but sorry that it is something chronic and not a one shot, take a pill, kind of thing.

Isn't it amazing that it was not so long ago that you posted the fact that you felt you were "done?" I am so glad the amidst the struggle you are not feeling an urge for #5. I remember how badly you really wanted Peanut, and I think that the baby news would be so much worse. Maybe that isn't much encouragement.

But I hope these BIG HUGS will be.

hestermom said...

I don't know how I missed it... but I was thinking, what illness? But from the comments, I am taking it to mean that you have fibromyalgia? That is a lot to take in... I hope that your pain level is better. I will be thinking and praying for you, I will have to go back and read to see if I missed a post on this. So glad you had a great Valentine's weekend!

Happi said...

I am so glad that you finally have some answers, as I know this has been a long road of not feeling well and being unsure as to why. At the same time, I know it has to be difficult processing what all this means and managing it. I am praying for you!