***warning...I'm not feeling good and there will be complaining/venting going on here***
I'm done...totally and completely done with feeling like junk. I am not going to stop testing until I get an answer and an answer I feel is the correct answer, I tend to get things back saying everything is fine, though I still feel junky I stop being poked and prodded to give my body a rest. The diagnoses we've gotten so far seem inaccurate. I am so mad, sad and upset today. Yesterday I wasn't feeling well and as the day went on I felt worse. I took a sleeping pill and still couldn't fall asleep, because of the pain. I think I finally drifted off around 11:30 which was 2 1/2 hours after I took the "magic" pill. I was so annoyed. Then J went golfing this morning really early and he woke me up at 6 something and I wasn't able to fall back asleep. When my alarm finally went off I felt worse then I did last night. I tried eating my normal bagel and I only ate half. I feel nausea and keep having the stupid dry heaves. I also have been feeling a little light headed on top of that too. I made the decision this morning that I would have to stay home from GG field trip. It breaks my heart because I so wanted to go with her but I can't justify putting other kids at risk if I pass out at the zoo. She was so sad which hurt even more. I love her so much and she is such a sweet little girl. I hate what this is doing to her and how scared she gets when I don't feel good. The bad thing is I hide about 97% of my pain from her and the boys. Poor Peanut sees more because she is the baby, though I try and shield her from a lot of it too. I just want my insides gutted and rewired. Is that possible? The best way I have come to describe the pain is it feels like my organs are inflamed or swollen and any movement hurts them. Sometimes I get like muscle spasms on the inside of my body. It is the weirdest feeling and it hurts. The thing that ticks me off the most is that I go to the doctor (my primary) she sends me to the GI doc or the Rheumotolgist and then they run a bunch of test that show up with nothing, so they give me the generic diagnoses of Fibromyaglia and IBS. I want to go see a specialist to test for food allergies and help me with my diet needs. I really feel like I am allergic to a certain type of food or I have a lack of a certain vitamin. I need to work with someone who can get me vitamins that aren't going to kill my stomach. I also want them to look inside and see what is going on instead of just guessing. It has been way to long for this to be going on.